Long time no write….

Basically I’m updating this to delay doing coursework, but in all honesty nothing has really changed since I last updated it, still single, still depressed, and in all honesty, it doesn’t really look like its going to change anytime soon either.
I just don’t seem to meet many girls who haven’t already branded me into the friend zone nowadays, and sure I sometimes meet girls who I potentially think it could work out with, but then they always seem to have boyfriends or be lesbians or something stupid like that.

My flatmate’s got himself a girlfriend nowadays, so a lot of the time I have the flat to myself to squander in my own self pity, and if he’s here I usually have to listen to the two of them having sex, which is never a good thing to hear if you, yourself, are not getting any…

Anyways I’ll probably get back to you all in due course…

Until then please check out my jottify and let me know what you think (its where I put all my creativeness nowadays :) )

Cheers

N x 

basically… this

I haven’t written on here for ages, so I’ll just give you the rundown of what’s happened since then…. I passed my first year of uni, passed my military fitness test, did two weeks work for the RN and remained single….. that’s all the exciting stuff really…

I went on a military exercise the week before last and was quite excited as I would be seeing this girl again, however in my excitement previously I’d told friends from other unis how I felt about her and whatnot, she heard all this and now she’s extremely pissed off with me and no longer talking to me… I just wish I could’ve kept my big mouth shut.. I haven’t slept well since then, and when I do I’ve been waking up in tears, she meant everything to me as a friend.. every day I spent with her during my first year of uni were the best days of that year, I felt I could confide absolutely anything in her, and even though she isn’t into me… she was a remarkable best friend and as usual with the fairer sex… I screwed up…. fucking story of my life… I’ve no idea how to win her back or anything… I doubt she’d read this, but I love my friends and I’d do literally anything for them, and I would trade anything to have things back the way they used to be.

I just seem to have a thing for ruining my life at least once every few years…. 

N x

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Well sometimes I suppose, things just aren’t what they seem…
Maybe I was too hasty… maybe I was too slow, but I guess unless events soon change, I’ll never truly know.
At the end of the day, I tried my best, that’s got to be some form of comfort, but it’s still making me feel empty inside, moreso than ever before.

I just don’t know what to do… everything I do, just makes me wonder where I went wrong, how I could’ve done better, what changed… so many questions flying round my head… they’re actually giving me a headache.

I suppose I’m just plain lost. 

I have to be up at 5 for early morning PT….. my flatmates know this, yet they still play music ridiculously loud…. someone shoot me now.

Today is also my 5th anniversary of being single, skived off of uni for half the day as I simply couldn’t be fucked… I just can’t be fucked with anything really nowadays, don’t even know what I want to do with life anymore… I don’t find anything I do fun or anything.

My aim in life is simple… have fun, but it seems I’m missing that aim by miles… its a bit shit. 

Once again haven’t written on here for ages… no excuse this time… Well time to catch up on the story of my life. Absolutely loads has happened since I posted my last blog back in october, as you probably would expect from a 3 month break. Well I’ll try and do it in as much chronological order as possible..

Well as you may know I’m employed by the military whilst at Uni, and we have to have posh dinners every now and then where basically everyone gets a decent meal and gets absolutely trashed, I was on top table next to the VIP so had a great time there, we then moved to the bar afterwards, where I saw the girl who I really like and went and started talking to her, discovered she was extremely drunk and so didn’t leave her side for fear of her doing something incredibly stupid. Anyway it was getting later and so one of the officers suggested we all go to a club and so we did. We were there for about half an hour, when I noticed that the girl couldn’t stay here any longer due to drunkenness and so I took her home. When we got to her front door…. well we kissed for quite a long time, it was beautiful…. so you can imagine how I felt when I was awoken the next morning by a text from her saying “What happened last night? I can’t remember anything!”, so as beautiful as it was, it didn’t mean anything in the long run due to her not being able to remember it…

But we’ve talked literally everyday since then and are gradually spending more and more time together, I’m very very happy when I’m with her, and we’re even going on holiday together, so I’m hoping that there is something between us…

erm.. can’t really think of anything much else that’s happened really aside from the usual uni crap of running out of money, but I will try and keep you all updated as to my progress through this adventure of life… and hopefully I’ll have a girlfriend soon too :)

N x

Doctor Who meets Merlin

Here I am again, I really need to start writing on this much more regularly…. well since I we last spoke not much as really changed I think; I’ve settled into my course magnificently and actually think I may pass my 1st year, I’ve also spent a lot of money mainly due to being sucked into the consumer’s black hole of designer clothing, and not bothering to go back to my flat to have lunch and instead just buying a boot’s meal deal most days. Also due to the fact that I failed my fitness test last month I’m now having to get up at 0500 twice a week to go and do fitness sessions on the other side of Southampton, alas I spose it is all for a good cause (£4000 next year :) ).

University still hasn’t lived up to it’s full expectations, sure I can go to the bar between lectures and fall asleep without lecturers paying the slightest bit of attention, but I’ve yet to see the side where girls apparently throw themselves at guys.. I don’t really want that sort of thing anyways, what I want/need after 4 years of being single is a relationship, but I suppose I will just have to wait and see. As always there is a girl I sort of like but I’m a bit more nervous than usual as I got so close last time and messed up…. I don’t want that to happen again; at least this girl is single to start off with and I don’t have to wait until she splits up with her boyfriend, I just need to make a move, just not too soon or I might be seen as a bit creepy or something, but if I’m too late I might lose her… argh!!! Girl’s are so confusing, if anybody can give me advice please do! I’m in desperate need of it!

N x 

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